Sometimes it gets kind of frustrating to have a boyfriend who's not as open minded
as I am towards fashion. I mean, I'm no high-end elitist when it comes to dressing and labels, but I definitely have much appreciation/an eye for clothing/style. I can stay online for hours, just browsing through tons of lookbooks and the likes. I could stay on a single site overnight, just planning what to buy for the next spree. Leave me in ION by myself for a whole afternoon
and I'll go bankrupt.
etc, etc, etc...
But then again, I love him for being that boyfriend who doesn't completely understand all this, just cause he's a real deal... guy. I love that.
VIVAEspaña!!! Watched the game over at Jingty's place together with Calvin and as time passed, each of us had to tear away our tickets :( Since I was the only virgin wolrd cup fan, I swear I was the most fickle HAHAHA It wasn't the most enjoyable game to watch, but a goal is a goal & a win is a win!
We watched Germany's match the previous night as well over at Winebar, and I believe that was more intense since it was my first time betting! It wasn't big bucks, but it was definitely a kickass game for all of us. Apart from that, it was Brandon's first time ever to actually hangout with me and my friends so snaps for that!!
I always believed that I was born nothing more than ordinary. I wasn't so much a of a child prodigy growing up and the things I like- pretty typical stuff. Most people here like to associate me with fashion, the colour black and weird. It doesn't really come as a surprise to me, but it would be nice to be other things too. I never really liked to be defined- heck, I myself can't even give a proper definition as to what or who I am.Maybe it's cause I was never really born ordinary in the first place.
Staying in on a Friday night isn't so bad after all, even if I'm just stoning half the time. HA. Everyone is either inviting me to go join in the world cup fever or go club, zzz. I still feel a slight tinge of happiness though, cause... - I just bought stuff online! - Got myself a pair of brogues! - Went for threading (like finallyyy) - Best of all, I got to see Brandon after what seems like lightyears! (missed you chubzz!) - & of course I got myself some KOI hahaha
Yes, I'm shallow like that. Designer Drugs tomorrow Y/N?
p.s. Aaahhhh, I really wanna go on a short getaway.. Someone bring me anywhere far far away from amk.
Hmmm... so this is what it's like to be out of school, jobless and rotting. But then again, I'll be eating my words in no time- Retake starts next week! Oh ya, someone contacted me for a freelance job today too (out of nowhere), but had to turn it down. Sigh.
Things have been... well, different. Not the best days lately but today I had my KOI bubble tea (!!!) and listened to my untouched playlist for months. KOC and Radiohead never get old.
"Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple - to be happy. Maybe it’s this expectation though of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to states of bliss, the more confused we get - to the point where we don’t recognize ourselves. Instead we just keep smiling - trying to be the happy people we wish we were. Until it eventually hits us, it’s been there all along. Not in our dreams or our hopes but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar."
Sometimes I think to myself that I'll never find that contentment I've been wanting to feel for so long. It's not that I choose not to, more like it's a tad bit difficult to see the good stuff I got going on in my life cause on most days, I just feel so empty, there's barely any good feeling left inside of me.
I wasn't always like this, I swear. But I thought having you would help mend the wounds a little.
I'm craving for steamboat/sushi/abalone noodle. Someone take me out for a date today.
8:42pm I just ordered in Macs and had the usual mcspicy meal and tried the cinnamon stuff they have. Ohmygod, serious diabetes kicking in soon.
Anyway, today I had a sudden breakdown due to fyp stress. I'm not happy with any of my current designs, so I'm now back to square 1; sketching, inking, scanning. Gaaahhhh, hoping to finish my poster/flyer/mini catalogue this weekend.
OhmyGod, I'm so lost with my fyp. I mean, I know what I'm doing (or so I think) it's just that I realized that since I'm doing branding of a (indie fashion) label, I can't do use much graphics. Now I'm sitting and staring at my sketches and I hate everything. Cause mine is supposed to have a strong concept behind it yet it doesn't seem to show much about it thru my designs. If only I could keep it simple with lots of whites and blacks, then it'd be totally me. I don't get why the lecturers want everything to be so direct. Uggghh. I'm so sick of my leaf designs.
omg panic panic i want this week to end alreadyyyyy
Fuuuck, I hate starving during the wee hours cause I can't do much about it. I'm so sick of ordering Macs!
Okay fuck that, I just ordered myself the big breakfast. Anw, (while waiting) here's a to do list that's totally unrelated to sch: -buy b&w film -hair treatment+cut (gawd, long overdue) errr... and save so I can buy things I rly want.
Today's weather forecast: Perfect! Singapore weather should just stay this way forever, although less chilly maybe. Snacking on a chili dog + bubble tea right now while doing some sketches. HA. WORK. WORK. WORK.