heart pain

Sometimes it feels as if it's so hard for you to want me.
One day you'll say you're just not in the mood for anything at all...

Do you know what it feels like to hear such?

I change shapes just to hide in this place

weekend overview

karate kid with Brandon (thumbs uppp) + last minute zouk (england cheers/stupid techtonic moves/puke fest) +
lazy sunday with B (ate til full/outfit searching hehehe my boyfriend izz a fashionistaa) + sleeping mad early!!!

Happy 4th :)

Staying in on a Friday night isn't so bad after all, even if I'm just stoning half the time. HA.
Everyone is either inviting me to go join in the world cup fever or go club, zzz.
I still feel a slight tinge of happiness though, cause...
- I just bought stuff online!
- Got myself a pair of brogues!
- Went for threading (like finallyyy)
- Best of all, I got to see Brandon after what seems like lightyears! (missed you chubzz!)
- & of course I got myself some KOI hahaha

Yes, I'm shallow like that.
Designer Drugs tomorrow Y/N?

p.s. Aaahhhh, I really wanna go on a short getaway..
Someone bring me anywhere far far away from amk.

naked me

Hmmm... so this is what it's like to be out of school, jobless and rotting.
But then again, I'll be eating my words in no time- Retake starts next week!
Oh ya, someone contacted me for a freelance job today too (out of nowhere),
but had to turn it down. Sigh.

Things have been... well, different. Not the best days lately but today I had my KOI bubble tea (!!!)
and listened to my untouched playlist for months. KOC and Radiohead never get old.

I miss my boyfriend.

the 9th

I pray that something picks me and sets me near you,
a place where i can enamor you from a distance.

All these uncertainties...
Tell me I'm not the only one feeling it.

favorite boy forever

truth be told

"Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple - to be happy.
Maybe it’s this expectation though of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from
ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to states of bliss,
the more confused we get - to the point where we don’t recognize ourselves.
Instead we just keep smiling - trying to be the happy people we wish we were.
Until it eventually hits us, it’s been there all along. Not in our dreams or our hopes
but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar."

3:37am, Goodnight.

I miss you. I can't find any other set of words to sum up how I'm feeling right now, but that.
See you in a week plus' time.