Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I love it when my sister has her off day.
Not only do I get free meals but free stuff too! Haha.
Plus... I'm never hungry.
Anyway, slowly and patiently waiting for my Macs to arrive.
I should really start sleeping earlier.
P.S. 3 days to my birthday, which I'm anxiously dreading :/
Wish my whole family was here to celebrate with me.
Monday, September 27, 2010
You know when you're young and get lost in love?
Well, although I'm not too proud of it, I can say I've gone through it alot of times only being 21.
It's the most intense and nicest feeling to have but it could leave you in pain 10x more intense.
I've gone through guys after guys and somehow, even if my most recent relationship wasn't the longest and the most perfect,
it was and still is the one I'd say I've treasured the most. I was both happy and sad but heck,
I was in love. I think the only difference between being lost in love then and now is that I knew something wasn't right (now).
But I still chose to go on with it cause you never really know when you'll feel that closeness with that person again...
which in all honesty, I was never really ready to give up just yet.
I honestly thought it would be my biggest regret due to the pain caused, but now that I think about it,
it's just another learning experience for me.
For now, I'm tired.
And I think it's about time that I put my emotions to rest.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Don't you just love it when you're all clean and fresh from a warm shower, hair still wet,
listening to your favorite songs and aircon's just in the right temp... as the night comes to a close and transits to the wee hours?
P.S. Hope this weekend passes in lightning speed!
I don't want anyone talking about Avalon :(
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
It's 2am and I've yet to move away from my comp. Gahhhh, so lazyyy.
So anyway, I had my 2nd interview today at another advertising agency called AvenueOne.
It was all the way in Commonwealth which I initially was clueless about and to sum it up,
I'd say it wasn't the best of interviews. Adam, the main boss, told me how their company
does really boring work. How most of their clients are banks and how my style is very far off
from what they do. I mean, come on... I'm a freshgrad and I suppose I gotta start somewhere.
He's seen my portfolio online so I've assumed that by getting me to come down,
I had a slight chance in this company. Idk, but seems to me he's quite iffy about giving me that shot.
Oh ya, he also said my style was very goth? WTH.
I'm starting to feel that I'm really more cut out for graphic design than advertising.
Although I always thought I'd excel more in the latter...
Well apart from all that, I had a fairly good day :)
P.S. I.NEED.TO.SHOP..... BADLY.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Saturday, September 18, 2010
So it's true. There comes a point in everyone's life when all you have is yourself to rely on.
Not cause people have left your side, but sometimes you just have to understand
that these people won't always be available.
And guess what? I'm home on a Saturday night. It's not the first indeed, but somehow
I was dreading this weekend real bad cause I knew then that it would have to be a first for many things.
I tried to make plans but turns out everyone just seems too busy. It got a little frustrating
so I've decided to just stay in, order Macs, read my book and savor all the time I have for myself.
You know how people are in such a rush to move on after a break-up?
How they force as much into keeping themselves really busy just so the thoughts
and emotions won't come rushing? It's totally reasonable and I guess handling it
is different for everyone, but I realized that although I was able to keep my mind off things
a little this whole week- going out and staying out late as much as possible- the more I succumb to it.
Instead of letting things fall into place, I was too preoccupied with moving on and to be honest,
I just made it even harder for myself. I even forgot that the reason why he gave me up
is cause I needed to learn how to be on my own, grow and maybe find that inner peace.
I'm gonna order my Macs now.
Hope everyone is enjoying their Saturday night x
Friday, September 17, 2010
So I had my interview today for this advertising firm called Formul8. It was all the way in Duxton Hill...
you know, aligned with all the artsy shophouses and irish pubs, very near red dot.
I'd say it was pretty intimidating to even be setting foot in that area just cause it really gives off that
whole indie/designer vibe. I met the art director, Helmut and had a pretty good chat with him.
He was honest and direct about how demanding this industry is. Truth be told, I was a little taken aback
by the image he tried to paint me. I have my worries, definitely but if I do end up working there,
there's seriously no time for play.
Oh well, crossing my fingers for Monday's interview.
I think I might need a drink.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
I'm not gonna lie, I still pretty much think about you day and night..
and as much as I really do try my best to stray away from thoughts of us,
it's something I can't seem to escape from.
But with all that said, I'm still grateful...
Cause you never really left.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Maybe I'm speaking too soon, but guess what?
I'm starting to feel alright.
Somehow tonight and last night bring me back to how it all started out...
I'm pretty sure this isn't me being too hopeful.
I don't know what it is but it makes me smile silly to myself :)
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
I think that one thing I'm most afraid of right now is knowing the closeness we once had is partly gone.
It keeps hitting me like a bitch. Sooo damn hard... it's almost too impossible to fight it back.
It's like that day you finally choose or want to be numb to everything,
is when you actually feel a shitload of emotions. All in one go.
God, I miss you so much...
Sunday, September 12, 2010
I have so many things I wanna let out but I'm afraid that by doing so,
my feelings might just eat me up alive.
Lord, help me out here.
Even the closest one to me right now can make me hit rock bottom.
Now I'm alone.
Maybe I'm better off like this anyway.
Maybe I never even had anyone in the first place.
Friday, September 10, 2010
I don't think it's even about being tactless irregardless of what your intentions are anymore,
or about me being emotionally unstable over countless things at the moment...
It's come to that point wherein you're always just going to be looking for something more.
I'm tired of this chase.
I miss our tales of sheer happiness.