Not cause people have left your side, but sometimes you just have to understand
that these people won't always be available.
And guess what? I'm home on a Saturday night. It's not the first indeed, but somehow
I was dreading this weekend real bad cause I knew then that it would have to be a first for many things.
I tried to make plans but turns out everyone just seems too busy. It got a little frustrating
so I've decided to just stay in, order Macs, read my book and savor all the time I have for myself.
You know how people are in such a rush to move on after a break-up?
How they force as much into keeping themselves really busy just so the thoughts
and emotions won't come rushing? It's totally reasonable and I guess handling it
is different for everyone, but I realized that although I was able to keep my mind off things
a little this whole week- going out and staying out late as much as possible- the more I succumb to it.
Instead of letting things fall into place, I was too preoccupied with moving on and to be honest,
I just made it even harder for myself. I even forgot that the reason why he gave me up
is cause I needed to learn how to be on my own, grow and maybe find that inner peace.
I'm gonna order my Macs now.
Hope everyone is enjoying their Saturday night x