added burden

EXHAUSTED,

from holding the camera in photog, trying to get the right angles
from the weight of my big big bag that I brought to sch today
from queueing up at the bank, just to get a hold of my recent purchases
from waiting for bus 169
from getting my way in and out of bus 169
(always so fucking crowded + driver's wreckless driving skills)

and to top it all off, Dinah just called to say that final submission for 3d fucking studies is tmr ar!!!

I need the weekend badly... then long pause.

On a random note, J*T puts the cherry on top of every Thursday. Hahaha

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The xx

Newfound love,

school schmool

XOXO

Smile upon me

There's a place in this world
Where people like me,
are found by people like you
So find a place as this forever divine

I don't know what are you now
Since everything has changed
If I did know one thing
Its me whose feeling strange

favorite things

of mornings

In the midst of fatal insomnia, I've come across this lovely site that screams food porn. I've never been the breakfast kind of person or have any liking for it since I'd prefer to bury myself in deep sleep, but seeing this makes me wanna step inside cold storage and bring back all sorts of berries, bread, etc. Brunch date, anyone?

Ok, this is me putting off homework...
Gonna go for a quick puff,


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dark shadow

Rick Owens Eastpak Padded Bag

It's so niiiiice :( I've actually been on a hunt for the perfect school bag and I'm leaning towards a backpack. The Marc Jacobs one I wanted is nowhere to be found anymore. My aunt visited the actual store + Bloomingdales in NY and to no avail.. Sighs. This one is over $300. Someone buy for me plzz.

3RD WHEELING CAN BE A SUCH A BITCH.
As pathetic as this might sound,
I actually need more single people in my life.

money is cool, yes?

Still contemplating on the boots but def getting the jacket... or is it the other way around?

ASOS AMIE Buckle Ankle Boot

Montecedo Graph Jacket

Haiizzz, sucks to want so many things when the digits in your bank acct are depleting. In my case, they already have. I'm not entirely sure how much I've left... I'd rather not know. Thinking about it is scaring the shit outta me alr. For my next allowance, I promise to only spend a hundred for clothes, 50 that I owe my sister for and the rest will be for food/school/etc.


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the crookers lives on

It's a Friday night and I'm home, munching on shaker fries and other junk. Words cannot describe how good it feels to be staying in tonight...

So the Nafa mates decided to club (pre gamed where we all lost ourselves, Attica, Zirca) and it was all good... dancing to familiar tunes and just having a good time. Stuck with the guys most of the night cause my legs were dead tired and they were chilling half the time. Met up with kelvin (indie boy) as well, whom I've missed! Ended the night with Hanz, Steven and Bryan... sitting by the steps, enjoying the calm night. Heart to heart talks and awkward conversation starters (LOLZ)... at 5 am, we owned the city. Took the first bus and slept thru the day. 7 am-7:30 pm whuttuppp.


Last night made me realize some things.
Last night made me do some pretty stupid things as well.
Knowing you're still there makes me feel half-empty.

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freaks

miss you happy drunks + jelly/jess/jaycy
mwarkzzz

life as we know it

What ever happened to days like this? Like everyone else (or at least most of my friends), I need a getaway... badly. School isn't doing much for me lately. I keep finding ways to escape it (i.e. today's stealth exit from the seminar room with evan. LOL). Srsly, nothing seems to be functioning properly in my head. It's all going cuckoo.

Anyway, new addition to my lust list...

Wanted a cuff from Marc Jacobs before but all oos :(

This Bullox jacket looks so yummy.

Obey has so manyyy rad stuff now. Yes, I'm still setting my eyes on the YSL copycat one, and those above but highly likely... cannot :/ Whatever, I still need to wait for my next allowance. Can't wait for the Need Supply Co. spree, woots!

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Resistance Is Beautiful

via The Coveted

Handmade things are special. … like in the case of ShiboriLove, a shop where you can get hand dyed legwear, scarves and girl’s tights. Cornell graduate, Jessie Fair studied Fiber Science & Apparel Design, which comes out in her approach to utilizing unconventional techniques in dyeing.

I can never pull off printed leggings, for some reason. I get stared at or I'm just simply not comfortable walking in them. But one day (or another), I surely will.

p.s. I need a massive shopping spree..

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skin lust

Was lusting over this last night..
I wanna be this tiny. She pulls it off so well.

my recent purchase: Deena & Ozzy sandals
(srsly the last until my next allowance)

ANYWHO, I received an email from my aunt from NY...

I might go the Marc Jacobs store this saturday so I will look for it and let you know. I was trying to check it at this online store but i can't find it for some reason. I will let you know OK??? But be warned Marc Jacobs stuff is quite expensive. Even I can't afford it!

*CROSSES FINGERS*


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alive & kicking

I realized how shallow I've become lately, thinking of nothing but clothes and what to splurge on next. I guess it's cause being attached for so long (then) played certain parts of my life on repeat countless times, until you've finally rid me of my youth. I was blinded and I really wish I could turn back time.

Now all I wanna do is anything but to grow up... I could be 20 and soon be working for the first time in my life, but I'll have to promise myself that it's only the beginning of everything.


p.s. Sundays make me wanna bury myself to sleep. Forever.


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Marc By Marc Jacobs

I WANT THIS BB SO BAD
Yes, I know I'm so late... I originally wanted the Marc Jacobs Fist bag but it looks so preschool to me.

Ugh and I'm lusting over this Complex Geometries top (can't seem to upload it). Will def get it if I don't get my hands on Marc.

pretty vacant

Rad By Rad Hourani

I don't mind dressing up for school everyday,
looking this rad.

ANW, gonna finish my meal, do laundry, clean my room? and off to dreamland. Srsly need to catch up on sleep. And now suddenly wanna go shisha just cause Dinah mentioned it.
SRSLY SRSLYYY IN NEED OF SOME CHILL TIME.


xoxoooo

MUST STOP PURCHASING ONLINE MUST CONTROL MY SPENDING MUST PATIENTLY WAIT FOR MY STUFF TO ARRIVE AND NOT SPEND EVERY DAMN WEEK FML

outta my way

It's already week 2 and I'm obviously still in holiday mode. I've been doing all my work at the very last hour before bedtime (literally) cause seems as if there's just tooo much to do and was talking to a friend and both realized all our classes have become such a bore zzzz. And so what better way to rid myself of the stress but to spend my so called "free hours" to gaze upon useless things like clothes and shoes... well maybe not useless but I know I shouldn't be dwelling on these when I'm broke, but hell noooooo, I made my orders alr and even created a new list! I guess it's the only thing that keeps me sane these days, apart from other things like................. Anyway, I thought I had alot to write about but my head is completely blank right now and I'm srsly feeling so fucked. Think I might run a fever.

Oh and p.s. i'm starting to learn to love you guys all over again. yes you you you youuu HAHA

So here are my recent buys... all practically from Silence & Noise..

...and this I have yet to cross off my list.
purchasing this bb soon!!

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blank

Good morning, cyber socials. Such a lazy Sunday today (like every other) and all I wanna do is lie in bed and listen to Gui Boratto. My plan of completing as much work possible turned out to be a failure cause I suddenly had last minute plans this weekend. Visited ION which sucked so bad, Sacha and I were like caged (i am now anti-malls), then had an impulsive trip to Zouk with Sach, Cal and his friends. Same old.. I really think I'm past my clubbing phase. Got home at 6 am and woke up with smudged eyeliner all over my yucky face.

Now craving for Subway cookies...
Gotta do work work work.


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lazy daaze

...this song could be my everyday soundtrack.

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TGIF// rant post

Fridays are free in our timetable but due to commencement of my first retake, had to go to join a freshman class. Gawd, I was stressing so much over it the night before, not knowing what to wear and those jitters everywhere. I entered the classroom and had the most awkward stares but thank god for people who want to be my friend. Haha, there was 6 of them but I only remember 4 of their names. They're pretty cool.

OMGZZZZ SO MUCH WORK TO DO ALREADY AND ONLY ONE WEEK HAS PASSED! And damn broke! And I still plan on splurging.. WHY GOD WHY???

p.s. this was us...

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CTRL

Recent buy: Ecote woven gladiator sandals... YAY/NAY?Next on my list: Asos leather string lace shoes... I thought it was a little man-ish and odd looking at first but if you pair it with an actual person wearing them, it's not bad at all. I'm just unsure of my shoe size... SHUCKS. Anyway, school's started, homework slowly piling up, retake module this Friday (wish me all the luck), and a depleting bank account :((((((( I seriously don't know how I'm gonna survive with such little bucks I've left. And I was even thinking of visiting the new Topshop at ION. Sucks to be broke. I need my next allowance badly!! I honestly don't get how I can't manage the amount I'm given... which is more than enough. Oh well.


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new found love

Take a chance in those wonderful words you just don't understand.
I can show you the way but I know that you'll never be there.
All the time, all the shine of your eyes I would never forget.
All I know there's no time, there's no life, there is no turning back.

There is no turning back...
No turning back...

Tallulah&Poly

Beautiful creatures... you too, Pharrell.

BTS countdown: 1 more sleepless night to go!! Yes, I say sleepless cause insomnia will def be kicking in. 9 am class FML. Hope it goes well... first days (first week rather) are usually useless...

Yikes, It's almost 3 pm and I'm eating my first meal for the day! I love lazy Sundays.

p.s. i hope we can both (completely) forget what went down from that youthful night. i spilled my heart out to you, and now i want it back with all the right pieces.


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vain post, skip if you must

Viktor

Dear God, please bless me with a perfect pair of legs... well, perfectly stick thin/skinny ones I guess. JUST THE LEGS PLEASE!! I'm having major issues with mine right now :(( There's just something so wrong with my thigh area.. I know toning would be the solution but I'm seriously not the type who'd do exercises,etcc. Believe it or not, I've been googling ways on how to fix this kind of shit... geeeez, UNIVERSE: SAVE ME. And my tummy too as my waistline got an inch (or 2??) wider.

FML

SILENCE AND NOISE FUCKING OOS!!

in the waiting line

WHEN THE HELL IS SOON?

They breathe fire

Name: Tommy Spicka
Occupation: Student
What are you wearing?
Everything is second hand except the shoes that I bought in a chinese store.
What was the last item you bought?
- It was the shoes.
How much money did you spend on it?
- 20 Euro.

There's something extremely sexy bout his look. The uncanniness perhaps? Gaahhh, I'd love to take a puff off his cigarette. HAHA, jk. I remember coming across this article regarding men who smoke cigs and how they do it. Such beaute in these creatures.
Here it is: They Breathe Fire

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Yayyy, I'm finally done with my purchases from UO. I ended up just buying 2 items cause shipping and all the extra fees are adding up way too much. Now all I have to do is starve myself and wait for the next half of my allowance. I KID. And shucks, I just remembered... I need to get a memory card for my effing hp. I got the LG something... here!
It's supposed to be a music phone, not sure if it's a good one. Oh well, as long as I have a phone.

p.s. I GOT MY DIGITS BACK, I wish you'd call me...


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knock me out and shoot me down

Silence and Noise has so much rad shit, I'm going crazy!!! I'm def getting this for sure and a few others. I just hate that they're all running out of XS sizes aaahhhhh! Okay, calm down. Now all I need to do is budget my allowance for the month, cause I'm gonna spend a bomb on the first half, since I'm gonna need to buy me a new hp too. I wish money really did grow on trees, then I'd be keeping one in my room all to myself. If only....

Fuck, I sounded like a total retard right there..

ON MY RADAR: N.A.S.A.- Gifted (Treasure Fingers)


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suck it, rev

So it's back to Singapore and I'm missing home so much. Oh, the perks of having a real home :( I don't have much to say at this hour and I'm dead tired from the day, so enjoy these REVOLUTIONARY pictures instead! HAHA, I swear... this last night out was THE funnest and craziest. I love my friends to death plus our stupid MJ + revo mooves. And all it took for us to be this crayzee was one round of shots, HAHA.

xxx

reality check

Singapore countdown: 3 effing days :( :( :(
Kidding... half kidding. All I know is I'm downright not ready for school, though I'm itching to be productive again. BUT, I'm all for getting my independence back. Money money money.. Lol, I kid.
On a random note, I'm in love with Greek food or anything Mediterranean tasting. Dinner with Mandi last night at Cafe Med was lovely, although I wasn't as much of a pig as she was. HAHA, I love you Mandirt and our endless conversations! Something I always look forward to with friends. Tomorrow marks my last day out... too surreal!

And OH, I got myself a new haircut today and ugghhh, not digging it. I swear, little things like salon failures seriously ruin my day.

Feast your eyes on my creative juices on screen.
(sarcasm involved)

thank you, michael

I was never really an MJ fan until the sick news came out that he was dead. It's sad and I wish I pushed myself to get to know more of him and his music, because watching every single news channel out there giving tribute to him and now the live memorial on cnn, he really appears to be such a LEGEND. Was and still is. I'm grateful though that I at least know some of his songs and have been living and breathing them these past couple of days. It's so odd how he's had so much impact on me lately. I guess it's the very fact that he's gone... The King of Pop. BUT, I know he'll live forever through his music and wise words of love and change, and the world being one.

I love you MJ and although I was never a fan from the beginning, I'll forever be your PRETTY YOUNG THING. You're def a part of me (:


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just keep swimming, swimming

oh, anthonio!

through the masquerade
you led me by the hand
whispered the words "this is forever"
said from a silver tongue
that's where is started from

ANNIE- ANTHONIO (FREDFALKE REMIX),

DESIGNER DRUGS remix is good too...
and speaking of which, now on a massive hunt for more of their music!


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let's get out of this country

Never thought I could say this (not in this lifetime), but I'm starting to get sick of life. Life.. people, faces, words, talk, everyone. Things are pretty much the same in this side of the globe, and maybe that's the problem. It's always been the same... Well, I might take these words back in no time since I'll be off to Singapore in 8 effing days buuuut I'll def be missing home (family esp). It's time for a breath of fresh air... Not that Singapore is the place to be, but I'd rather be anywhere but here. Maybe just for tonight... couple of days, I don't know. It's not like I have any other option.

I just hope this last stretch (make it a year) of school will be good. Must stay away from trouble..zzz.


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Sometimes... most times rather,
the only person I can EVER rely on is myself.

p.s. sorry for the lack of updatezz, will do when idleness kicks in


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